We have been TTC for over four years now. The first year was just having fun and trying to see what happens. During that time my DH’s mom was diagnosed with cancer and passed away. I don’t really consider that year part of our TTC journey because we had so much other stuff going on. The second year was spent with a far away RE doing testing. My DH has low morphology so the far away doctor wanted to do a SA four months apart in hopes of seeing improvement. Such a big waste of time – we then found an awesome RE closer to home. During years three and four we have done 10 IUI’s, 1 IVF, and 1 FET. Two of the IUI’s worked. The seventh IUI I miscarried at 10 weeks and the 10th IUI I miscarried at six weeks. IVF resulted in four fabulous grade A embryos. Two were transfered for the IVF and the last two for FET. Both resulted in a BFN. Jan 2011 we got our BFP with IVF#2 but lost our baby Gavin at 18.5 weeks. We took the next 6 months to heal emotionally. In December 2011 we transferred one frozen embryo. It resulted in a BFP! Due in August! I hope you enjoy following my story and don’t be shy! Tell me about yours!
Things with me and Squatter are going great! I have another cervix check tomorrow. I am hoping it’s a good number. At my last check it had gone from 4.6 to 3.4 which worried me a bit. I have to say that feeling her move and kick is just amazing. I love every second of it! She likes to give is a bit of a show at night when we’re going to bed. I do worry when I have not felt her move in a while. Right now I am at my desk, wondering what I can eat to make her move to reassure me.
I have been catching hubby staring at me lately. When I ask him what’s up he smiles and says that he loves seeing my belly. So sweet!
Here is what I posted on FB to announce Squatter. I wanted to remember Gavin at the same time and think I accomplished doing that...
"In some circles, babies born to families after the loss of a child are referred to as "Rainbow Babies." The idea is that the baby is like a rainbow after a storm. "Rainbow Baby" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope. We are happy to announce that I am expecting our rainbow baby girl in August."
My anatomy scan went well! Everything looks normal and I am even measuring two days ahead. I still have partial placenta previa but the doctor is confident it will correct itself over the next couple months. But that does mean continued pelvic rest – sorry honey.
Squatter was giving us a show and I could have watched HER forever. Yes, Squatter is a GIRL! This picture confirms it…
And I am pretty sure she is a thumb sucker like her mother was. Every US so far her hands are at her mouth and I think this picture confirms that she is just like me!
I am on cloud 9 and was dreaming in pink and purple last night! I even brought these in for my office for the big revel!
This is the furthest that I have made it in any of my pregnancies. It’s a nice feeling but I still let my crazy mind wonder and get the best of me. I have Squatter’s anatomy scan tomorrow and I am excited but also nervous at the same time. I have no reason to think there will be bad news but due to past experience I kind of expect it.
Here is a picture of me from this weekend – sorry it’s so dark and crappy...my camera phone sucks. My puppy Chase had to sneak in the picture with me. I am starting to embrace the belly!