We have been TTC for over four years now. The first year was just having fun and trying to see what happens. During that time my DH’s mom was diagnosed with cancer and passed away. I don’t really consider that year part of our TTC journey because we had so much other stuff going on. The second year was spent with a far away RE doing testing. My DH has low morphology so the far away doctor wanted to do a SA four months apart in hopes of seeing improvement. Such a big waste of time – we then found an awesome RE closer to home. During years three and four we have done 10 IUI’s, 1 IVF, and 1 FET. Two of the IUI’s worked. The seventh IUI I miscarried at 10 weeks and the 10th IUI I miscarried at six weeks. IVF resulted in four fabulous grade A embryos. Two were transfered for the IVF and the last two for FET. Both resulted in a BFN. Jan 2011 we got our BFP with IVF#2 but lost our baby Gavin at 18.5 weeks. We took the next 6 months to heal emotionally. In December 2011 we transferred one frozen embryo. It resulted in a BFP! Due in August! I hope you enjoy following my story and don’t be shy! Tell me about yours!
What are you favorite / must have baby items?I would like any and all recommendations from strollers to toys and everything in between!What are your favorite brands and what could you have lived without.Please help this clueless soon to be mom.I have started to work on my registry because my shower will be on July 1st. I have been asking around for hand me downs but all my girlfriends’ kids are older or they had boys.I am going to start look on Craigslist for some stuff!
Here is my first official update for this pregnancy. Feel free to skip this post. I have skipped many pregnancy updates over the years so you won’t hurt my feelings.
How Far Along: 24 Weeks
Size of Baby: This week the baby is measuring just about a foot long crown to heel and is weighing in close to a pound and a third!
Picture of Baby: Squatter was not cooperating and kept her hands in front of her face for her last photo shoot. I will get some pictures next week.
Maternity Clothes: Lately all I have been wearing besides a few shirts and one non maternity dress. I need to invest in a few more pieces.
Weight Gain: Well – I thought I was doing pretty well until my ob appointment yesterday. I was up 10lbs from 20 weeks. I have gained a total of 22lbs so far. I guess I will go over the 35lb mark with Squatter. I blame it all on Squatters recent growth spurt. I know I need to think about my food choices but I am still in the phase of eating whatever makes me feel ok and not nauseous. My diet is mostly carbs and fruit.
Belly: This was taken at 23 weeks.
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Stretch Marks: Not yet – I have started to lotion up morning and night!
Sleep: Pretty good most nights. I tend to get up to pee at least twice per night. My hips recently started to ache a bit at night which keeps me up a bit.
Best Moment of the Week: Feeling her movements get stronger. I can feel her all day and it is the best feeling ever.
Movement: See above
Symptoms: I still throw up every morning but then I am good. I take a small dose of my anti nausea meds everyday but I am going to try to wean myself this weekend.
Food Cravings: Nothing crazy. It’s really more about what I can eat that will sit ok.
Gender: Squatter’s a GIRL! We are about 90% sure on a name for her but that will be kept to ourselves until she is here! It was hard enough for hubby and I to decide on a name – we sure don’t need help from the peanut gallery!
What I Miss: Nothing! I might whine a bit to hubby about throwing up every morning and not being able to eat Mexican food but I really don’t mind. I love being pregnant and this belly.
What I'm Looking Forward to: Making it to 28 weeks. Everyday Squatter is with me is amazing and I can’t wait to meet her!
Nursery: We bought a crib! This is a huge step for me and hubby had to talk me into it. I was worried about the 90 day return policy in case something horrible happened in the next 16 weeks (112 days). The chest and hutch are on order and will be delivered and assembled in the next 8-10 weeks. We decided to take the crib home with us now because hubby wanted to get it all set up! I love that he is this excited and wanted to put it together himself. We also have paint color picked out!
Weekly Wisdom: Dress for comfort! I try to look professional at my job but I fear that will go out the window a bit for this pregnancy and the summer heat. I am going to wear what I want and be comfortable!
Thank you for all your comments and support.These are all wonderful ways to remember our sweet Gavin.I’m going to order these to mail out to our friends and family.I think it’s a great way for everyone to remember him.On his birthday we are going to have dinner with our close friends T&A (Yes – I love writing their initials) to remember his birthday.These friends are the ones who spent time with us the week I was in the hospital and actually A was the only ones besides us who saw Gavin.The night after he passed T hung out with us at the hospital since it was our Friday night tradition since A worked nights.They brought some normalcy to a bad week and I am forever grateful for their friendship.
because I don’t know what to do to properly remember you on your upcoming birthday (May 19th)
because I fear that once Squatter is here others might forget you
because I miss my first born
because I never got to feel you kick
because I remember the awful week in the hospital and the look in hubby’s eyes
because I miss you
I think about Gavin every day and I would like to do something to remember him on his birthday. Everytime I try to talk about him or what to do I start crying. Any thoughts or suggestions are welcome to help me with what to do.