I hope everyone found their Christmas spirit

It took me a while but I finally found mine and was able to enjoy a great long weekend with hubby and a wonderful Christmas day with family. Reflecting on the ups and downs of IF this weekend, I realized that last year (December 26th) I received a BFP from my 10th IUI then miscarried a week later. I guess that is why I had such a hard time with the holiday this year. I was bleeding last NYE and sat on my couch feeling horrible. I hope this NYE is fun and makes up for last years. I can only look forward and pray that 2011 brings good things for all of us!


We got hubby’s results back from his SA that he had to have redone for IVF #2. Not really sure why they had the need to retest because we had to do ICSI for the last IVF so why make him test again when we already know we need ICSI for this one...sorry…I am getting side tracked. His results are back and they are a bit surprising. Last year his KSM Morphology was at 6% (15% is normal)…now a year later it’s at 0%. Yes, that is a big fat ZERO – WHAT THE HELL? He is taking all his vitamins and we have not changed anything. I am not really sure why the change. I just hope that they can pick out a couple normal swimmers for us to use!

On a side note we took our puppies to the dog park last night. They love it there and are very social with dogs and people alike! My dog Blue instantly found a new bff at the dog park…a little boy who was about 7 years old or so. Blue didn’t leave his side and tired himself out playing fetch with this boy. It brought a tear to my eye that my dog loves kids so much. I had to ask the little boy to walk us to the door when we were leaving because Blue wouldn’t come with me. The kids dad asked when we would be back at the park so they could play together again. So sweet!

My Boy Blue!

Not Feeling it...

Has Infertility has stolen my Christmas spirit this year? I am not exactly sure what’s going on…here is a list of possible reasons why I am not feeling into Christmas…


• Because last year I was so sure that this Christmas I would have an extra stocking or two to hang and that didn’t happen

• Because it’s hard to decorate when there won’t be any gifts under the tree. (We decided to get a new computer for our Christmas gifts instead this year)

• Because our vacation took all our energy and there is none left to put up a Christmas tree

• Because our family tradition of spending Christmas Eve with my family will not happen since my parents are on a two week cruise

• Because the high weather temps for the week of Christmas is going to be in the 80s

I guess it really doesn’t matter why. We decided against decorating for the holiday. I just need to focus on getting AF in two weeks so we can all the RE and start on BCPs for IVF #2! This next cycle is so close yet I feel so distant from it. I’m not excited or scared or anything in between – I’m indifferent. Wonder if that is a normal safety precaution that my brain is doing so I can’t get hurt again.



Hmm…I just reread this and it sounds like I need an attitude adjustment before starting IVF…I need some positive thoughts. I will work on that.

Fully Rested and Back to Work!

Oh how I have missed you guys!  It’s been a wonderful break from the real world but I guess we all have to come back sometime.  Our trip to Italy was fabulous – better than I imagined!  We stayed in Rome and visited Florence and Pompeii.  It was the type of vacation that tired you out with all the walking and sightseeing but I loved every second of the history and all the beautiful sights.  Oh, and the food was wonderful and we also drank lots of wine!  Highlights from the trip included a private tour of the Vatican/St Peter’s and the Colisseum.  We were able to get in to see the Sistine chapel an hour before it opened to the public.  It was us + our tour guide and one other couple in there and it was magnificent (almost indescribable).  The Catholics sure had a lot of money and did it up right!  We signed up for a group tour at the Colisseum but we were the only ones so it ended up being a private tour.  That was a nice perk because we went off season.  The weather was good…highs of 60 with a touch of rain.  Another wonderful thing I noticed about Italy…there were no pregnant ladies.  Not sure why – maybe I was having too much fun to notice or maybe the baby craze has not hit Europe yet.  I didn’t think about IF at all during our trip!  I will leave you with a few photos from the trip!!!

At the Trevi Fountain

Inside the Colisseum

                                                      

Inside the Colisseum

Our last Gelato of the trip (so yummy)