This is the story of our first month of TTC. Keep in mind this was over four years ago and we were blissfully innocent. It all started with a breakfast out one Sunday morning. We had been married for just about a year and we had the typical conversation about starting our family. So that day I threw out our BCP and was so excited. I thought I understood the timing of everything and basically knew what to do. We had spent plenty of time practicing so I thought I would be one of the lucky ones who got pregnant right away. We had timed intercourse then about three days after the timed intercourse I felt some twinges in my ovary area and I was sure it had worked. To the point that I looked at hubby and exclaimed “I think it worked”. He just laughed at me and we went on our way. Well it didn’t work. I had my timing way off and we got busy on cycle day 10/11. The twinges I was feeling was from ovulation. I totally missed the window that month. I still think back to my “I think it worked” comment and giggle. I guess I didn’t really know my body at all since I was on the pill for 10 years or so. I had never felt ovulation pain or even really thought about it. Now that I am off the pill I will never go back on it (not that I will ever need too). I love knowing my body and feeling what it does and actually understanding it.
Its amazing how naive we all were. I walked around on my birthday (On that first year of trying) thinking I was pregnant, even tho multiple pee sticks said no.
ReplyDeleteI was sure it worked on our wedding night because I just "knew" I ovulated that day. Sooo wrong. So sad. No idea what was in store for me.
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely way to flip the ending there. I totally agree, one positive to having gone through IF is how well I've gotten to know my body. I'm not sure I ever would have seen the same things had it not been for this.
ReplyDeleteAnd I was 100% sure it worked the first time too. So much so that I was utterly devastated when I realized that it didn't. Little did I know what was to come, lol.
Thinking of you.
Isn't it funny how some our best laid plans never materialize? I also thought we'd get pregnant right away. Everyone around me seemed to get knocked up on their first try, so why not us, right?
ReplyDeleteAh, to look back and be that naive!
One of the few things I have enjoyed about this is learning more about my body. Even though it doesn't work perfectly, it's still amazing.
ReplyDeleteHehehe. It is funny to think back to those more innocent, naive times, when we thought we knew what we were doing, right? But I agree with you - knowing more about my body and knowing that nothing can really be expected is an unexpected plus. I feel certain that I will never go back on the pill either, although I suppose that remains to be seen.
ReplyDeleteYeah, I thought we'd concieved on our wedding night too and was vaguely worried as we were going on honeymoon a couple of months later.
ReplyDeleteWishing you good luck with this cycle. What you said about knowing your body made me think about how it is still a guess game for me to identify when I ovulate.Ironic that i had moments in the past when I was hoping that I wasn't pregnant or thinking that it was just matter of time for it to happen. Yes, so innocent.
ReplyDeleteI am so excited for you starting this year with new cycle and renewed optimism. I somehow feel that it will work. It would be so amazing after all that you have gone through! I am crossing my finger for you!.
Isn't it crazy how naieve we are in the beginning of it all. I was convinced more than once that I was pregnant before we knew of my husband's azoo diagnosis.
ReplyDeleteHope this is YOUR year!
I was just going to make the same comment as Suzy above. Oh to be young and naieve back then.
ReplyDeleteI am praying super hard for you!!
Haha, my funny naive story is that I walked around for days when we were first TTC thinking that I felt something in my uterus - um yeah, it was a bladder infection.
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