Thursday, February 10, 2011

With this BFP I should be feeling ecstatic / over the moon happy and all I can do is worry - Being an infertile has taken that away from me. After having two miscarriages and knowing all the things that can happen these first couple weeks, months and beyond has really put a damper on being blissfully ignorant and happy. It makes me really hate infertility. I should be enjoying every twinge and the lower back pain but all I can think of is that it might not last. I know I am very lucky to have this BFP and I am so grateful for it I am just really nervous.


At least I get a third beta tomorrow! That should maybe get me through the weekend!

15 comments:

  1. congrats!!! That does sound stresfful considering what you have been through. Hmmm...I hope tomorrow goes well.
    :)

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  2. congrats sweetie! I'm sending sticky dust your way for the next 9 months!

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  3. I totally understand that fear, I've had 3 m/c's myself. It sucks. Hang in there though, remember: NBHHY (nothing bad has happened yet) Let's hope it stays that way :) Lots of positive thoughts!

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  4. Keeping my fingers for this baby to stick!!!

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  5. Totally understandable, it's just you protecting yourself. Sending you lots of positive thoughts and I will add to Kellys sticky dust!

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  6. What you are feeling is def 100% normal to feel like this....it will take a while for that wall to slowly come day...For now just try to take things step by step and day by day...And we will be here to support you along the way...Will be thinking of you tomorrow:)

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  7. I totally understand...I hate that we can't enjoy every minute, but I think it's normal to feel this way. I really hope you get a great beta and are able to relax a little more every day.

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  8. totally normal, and normal if that feeling doesn't go away for...oh about 9 more months! Hang in there and try to enjoy the glow of the BFP!

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  9. Good luck with today's beta! And hang in there. You are doing great, despite the worries - which are completely normal, by the way.

    Thinking of you and hoping for amazing number today!

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  10. Congratulations on your BFP! I wish you so much luck in the coming weeks and lots of stickiness for that little bean of yours.

    I have been following your blog for a couple of weeks now and I am really enjoying reading everything. So, I've nominated it for two awards on my blog, Are You Sure You're Doing It Right at http://areyoudoingitright.blogspot.com/

    I am really looking forward to reading more and following your progress. All the best to you & lots of luck!

    ~ A

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  11. Once you've gone through what we've been through, the thrill and excitement of a BFP is no longer the same. Sure we are happy, but we proceed with so much caution!

    You know how I got through it?? I said A LOT of prayers. And came to the realization that it was all in God's hands. Trust in the Lord.

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  12. it's hard to let go of the fear and just be excited. tell you what, i'll be excited for you, because i have a good feeling about this! :)

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  13. i totally understand that feeling, even if i was only pg for a few days, i feel like if i ever get and stay pg, i will constantly worry. infertiliy robs us of SOOO much more than just the initial ability to have baby normally and naturally... hoping your 3rd beta gives your head a little bit of rest.

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