My OB said that I can start trying again in three to four months (or when we are emotionally ready). The perinatologist in the hospital said to wait a year. I am thinking of splitting it and starting back up at the RE in about six months. It’s hard to think about TTC right now since I am still in such a raw place but being the planner that I am, I need to think about our future also. Since we have four frosties waiting for us I will call and see what I need to do for a November/December FET. I am sure they will need to do some blood work and probably another semen analysis since all their tests are only good for a year. I will talk to the RE and perinatologist about how many embryos to transfer. I think one at a time is probably good. The potential of twins when I might have an incompetent cervix is probably not a good idea. I am wondering how the RE freezes embryos. I have a feeling that the freeze two together so I can’t just defrost one of them.
Health wise I am doing much better. No more bleeding or night sweats. I have started back to the gym and I was actually a little surprised I didn’t keel over! I will hit up a couple classes this week. I need to get back into my normal clothes so I have some cute stuff to wear to work.
Emotionally I am also doing better. I only cry when I have a reason to cry. When Gavin’s urn was delivered the other day and I cried when I saw it. I am sure I will cry when we transfer his ashes to it tonight. (I will post some photos of it later). I can now look at his photos and talk about him without a meltdown. However, I do cry when my husband says sweet things to me about being a mom.
Thanks for all your sweet comments on our pictures of Gavin.
You sound like you're healing, and things are really looking up. I'm so happy to hear this. It will take some time, and continue to grant yourself permission to grieve. Continuing to think about you!!!
ReplyDeleteYou are always in my thoughts and prayers...xoxo
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear you are feeling better.
ReplyDeleteI LOVE the pictures of Gavin. Truly priceless.
Thinking of you. xoxo
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers-agree that the pictures of Gavin were absolutely beautiful. All my best to you.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that you are feeling better physically. And, glad that you're feeling a little better emotionally and able to think toward the future. Many ((hugs)).
ReplyDeleteYou are in my thoughts. Take care of yourself. xoxox
ReplyDeleteplanning is definitely part of the healing process. Good for you for thinking about it. Take all the time you need tho, those frosties are doing just fine where they are!
ReplyDeleteAs always you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Of course you cry sweetie - it's perfectly natural. This will always be a sad thing for you, though it will get easier over time. You are totally allowed to cry. Glad to hear you are taking care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteI also wanted to say thank you for your support while in the midst of this. You're a doll.
You are constantly in my thoughts!!!
ReplyDeleteI have been thinking of you and I am so glad you spirits are up. You have been through so much...
ReplyDeleteI have been thinking of you. The pictures of Gavin are beautiful. Your strength and optimism is amazing :)
ReplyDeleteFETs are incredibly easy after all the work for a fresh cycle. Hubby won't have to do anything except sign paperwork. You will only have to undergo an initial exam and blood work and then it is off to the races. I have done three FETs so far, if you want to actually transfer embryos in December you will want to make the call to your RE in October or September, if you won't be ready to make that call until December, don't expect to transfer until Feb at the earliest. You are in my thoughts....