Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Back in the Saddle Again


I called the RE two weeks ago on my CD1 just to see what testing they were going to make me do again if we want to proceed with a FET in November. I assume they will want to do some blood work and I am hoping that I will not need another HSG. They called back and said that the first step was to meet with the RE…so…


I have an appointment with my RE tomorrow and I have such mixed emotions. I can’t believe I have to go back after they made such a big deal about me graduating from there back in March. I am nervous and have butterflies…a little part of me is excited with the thought of trying again and the other part is terrified. All the what ifs are running through my head and it keeps bringing tears to my eyes. I thought the next time I would be in his office I would be one of the annoying moms dragging her screaming two year old in (annoying all the other IFers) to do a FET for our second kid. Now I will be in his office having to tell him Gavin’s story through tears trying to keep it together long enough to hear his thoughts on everything. I will let you know how it goes!

21 comments:

  1. Good luck, sweetie. I hope it goes well, and is not too upsetting for you.

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  2. I'm sending you all the positive vibes and strength I can to help you through the appointment. I'm hoping you leave feeling a little less terrified and a lot more encouraged for the next step. Hang in there.. we are all rooting for you :)

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  3. I'll be thinking of you. I'm sure it's going to be hard. I hope it goes well. Lots of (*hugs*), good luck.

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  4. I'll be waiting to hear what you have to say.

    Oh, and thanks for your sweet comments. I'm going to try to remember that--but there's something about this class that takes all of the gumption out of me.

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  5. I'm sure it's not going to be easy, but I am glad you are going for it! Hugs!

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  6. I can see how hard it'll be to walk through those doors again, without a baby in tow or cooking. Re-telling your story, that's gotta be so hard, especially when they were all rooting for you so. I hope they will all be extremely supportive and caring for you, making this already difficult time a little bit easier. And I'm really rooting for a November FET!

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  7. Hope your appt goes well tomorrow. And I really hope you don't need another HSG. I don't know about you but I thought it hurt like hell.

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  8. Good luck at your appointment. That has to be so hard to walk in that office again. Wishing you much strength!

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  9. I'm so proud of you for going back to an RE. You are a strong woman. I admire and respect you....good luck with the appointment! I hope you are able to get somewhere with your RE. Thinking of you.

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  10. Oh how hard, to graduate and have to go back! I hope this transfer is a huge success! Good luck! :)

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  11. I go into my RE with mixed emotions too. It's such a reminder of what I haven't accomplished yet... not so much hope as I wanted it to be. I'm excited for you to "get back in the saddle" again... Thinking of you.

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  12. wishing you and your husband every blessing
    xoxo
    lis

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  13. sending you so much love. I remember my first RE appt after our loss. I actually left info on my RE's voicemail and since he was part of the hospital system where my ob was he was able to gain access to my medical records. So much easier since I did not have to go thru my entire story. I wonder if you can do something like too
    Best of luck to you

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  14. Will be thinking of you today as you go in for your appt. I know it's scary and exciting at the same time to get back in the saddle. We are all here to support you and cheer you on. Lots of prayers for you today! :)

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  15. Thinking of you today and hoping your appointment went well!

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  16. You are so strong for doing this - be proud of yourself! Good luck and sending you positive thoughts!

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  17. With lots of good luck and hugs. You are doing something good, taking a deep breath and going forwards. I hope that the staff made this experience not-the-worst for you.

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  18. My heart absolutely breaks for you reading this. Keep the faith -

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