The results are in…

I am officially a girl and my hubby is officially a boy! YIPPY!

We just finished up with our test results appointment with our RE. Everything is normal. Well, I guess as normal as sitting in your RE’s office after years of treatment without a baby can be.

I think we have a plan – Hubby and I have to chat about it a little more. There are things to consider like should we wait until the new year when my insurance coverage resets and figuring out when we want to go to NYC! I would like us to be on all the prescribed supplements/vitamins for at least three months before doing IVF again (this also means good bye to my beloved diet coke). The Dr agreed with me on that. So that takes us up to starting BCP in October and IVF in November at the earliest.

We currently have a $4500 credit at the RE’s because my insurance company decided to give us some IF coverage for the last cycle. The coverage has now been maxed out. So, if we proceed with IVF this year then we would owe another $6000 plus meds. If we wait until January we would probably only need to pay for meds. I know this sounds like a no brainer but I am having trouble agreeing to wait. I have waited long enough and those last two months might kill me. If we wait until January then we can take our NYC trip in November like planned and we won’t have to worry about IVF meds or anything.

The Dr also said he would be switching my protocol to Lupron - last time I was on Follistim. He thinks the Lupron will help with the number of eggs. Any comments on the two protocols? Anything I should be aware of? They will also shorten my time on BCP’s from three weeks to two weeks. He believes this will help my follicles kick start in the beginning.

That’s it for now…I guess I need to figure out my plan. Is it worth being practical – probably. I guess I shouldn’t try to cram a trip and IVF all in this year and have to pay extra for it.

Happy Tuesday!

I have to start with a little apology to all my readers. I was in a bad place yesterday with it being Monday and I’m totally PMSing. I am really happy for my co-workers daughter. It just irks me a bit when I hear of complaints from very fertile pregnant girls. I GET that the first trimester is hard (since I have almost made it though one). I do feel a little bad that she can’t even keep a sip of water down but oh what I would give to be in her shoes - Even though her shoes have a little puke on them!

I am getting excited and nervous about my appointment tomorrow! I am praying there is nothing “wrong” with either of us but at the same time it would be nice to have some answers. I hope today is busy at work so I don’t think about it all day. I already have enough questions for the doctor swimming in my head. HAPPY TUESDAY! I hope today is better than everyone’s Monday!

Typical Monday

Today was a typical Monday. Spent the first part of work trying to read and catch up on everyone’s blogs – sorry I have not had time to comment. I don’t get on the internet over the weekends so I had lots of reading to do today. Our home computer connection is slow and I don’t have much patience for it.

Today I found out that a co-workers daughter is pregnant. He has been dreading telling me because he didn’t want to hurt my feelings. He is the only person at my work who knows of my IF struggles. I felt kind of bad that he wanted to be excited to share the news of being a grandpa again but was scared to tell me. But then he was complaining that his daughter has had such bad morning sickness and has to be on IV anti-nausea meds. I didn’t have anything to say because I don’t feel sorry for her one bit. This is her second child and they have no problems conceiving so part of me was happy she was so sick – isn’t that sad. I know I am probably going to HEdoublehockeysticks but IF does this to a person. Once this information sinks in a bit I will be fine with it. I also found out that my favorite nurse at my RE’s is out on maternity leave. I had no idea she was even pregnant. I am happy for her but glad that I never saw her with a pregnant belly.

We have our WTF doctors appointment on Wednesday. I will let you know how that goes and what our plan will be. I am excited to go in and figure everything out!

Empire State of Mind

So - my DH has been working his cute tush off at work. They are finishing up a big project this week (insert happy dance). He is pretty burnt out from all the overtime he has been working. He told me that he was planning on taking the first week of August off to relax and recuperate. I will probably take a couple days off with him which will be wonderful. The best part of the conversation was when he said that he will use his other two weeks of vacation in November. This means that I might be getting my NYC trip after all. He has been down playing it saying that we have other things to be spending our money on (blah blah blah) but obviously it’s on his mind! Keep your fingers crossed that I will get my 5 year wedding anniversary trip in November! I have not been to NY since I was a kid…I barely remember the City. Now I just need to figure out when we will do our next IVF - Should I try to fit it in before the trip or after? I don’t really want to travel with shots…I know it can be done but what a pain.


In New York,
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of,
There’s nothing you can’t do,
Now you’re in New York,
these streets will make you feel brand new,
the lights will inspire you,
lets here it for New York, New York, New York

Can you tell that I am getting excited for a trip that is not even planned yet?!? (btw…I love this song and it is always stuck in my head)

Ta-da!

What do you think of my new look? I absolutely love it!!! Thanks to Mary at Bright Sunshine Designs for the beautiful layout and making my vision a reality!

A Fresh Look

I have been inspired by Hannah at Life Happens to get a blog makeover! I am so excited. Keep an eye out for my new look coming soon!

Wordless Wednesday - A Photo from our Hawaii Trip Last Year

I win! I win!

Holy Crap…My Very First Award…Versatile Blogger Award: You Like Me! You REALLY Like Me!



The fabulous and brilliant Jay of “The Two Week Wait” (http://the2weekwait.blogspot.com/2010/07/versatile-blogger-award-you-like-me-you.html)has honored me and my blog with the Versatile Blogger Award!

You like me… you really like me!

As I understand it, this is how the award works in three steps…

ONE: Thank the person who gave you the award:

Thank you very, very much Jay I’m incredibly honored and a little shocked. Thanks for sharing your story with us!

TWO: Tell 7 things about yourself that readers may not know.

SEVEN THINGS ABOUT ME MY READERS MAY NOT KNOW:

1. My work pays me way too much for what I do…I got very lucky with my job. Great benefits and everything – they even cover some of my IF treatments.

2. I am shocked to win any kind of writing award. I am a Math person not English so thank you for sticking with me while I vent, even if it reads like a third grader wrote it. I love bogging and so happy that I started.

3. I used to dislike dogs – I thought they were smelly and dirty. Then we got our puppies and now I couldn’t imagine life without them. I even let them sleep in bed with us!

4. I am a closet smoker! Yes – I know I need to totally quit. I don’t smoke during procedure months. But since we are on a break I have indulged a bit…there is nothing like a cold beer and a cigarette. I will stop…I promise.

5. I worry that I will not be a good mom. I have had lots of practice with babies but some do annoy me a bit and that worries me

6. I have a very hard time making friends – especially with girls. They all tell me that their first impression with me was that I was a total B!tch. I think it’s because I am shy and they take that to mean I am giving them the cold shoulder.

7. I watch way too much TV…I am totally addicted to crappy shows like Real World Road Rules Challenges and Jersey Shore. JS was such a train wreck I just couldn’t help myself. I am also watching Big Brother and So You Think You Can Dance. My hubby and I always joke that we are now too old to be on any of these reality shows.

THREE: Pay it forward by nominating bloggers you’ve recently discovered:

I would like to bestow the Versatile Blogger Award upon the following:

1) Life Happens When You’re Making Other Plans (http://ngowhitcombfamily.blogspot.com/)

2) Slice of Pie (http://sliceofpietoday.blogspot.com/)

3) Where’s My Stork (http://wheresmystork.blogspot.com/)

4) Life As A Navy Wife & Everything Else (http://hcbishop.blogspot.com/2010/07/all-that-glitters.html)

5) and then there were three (http://jakemerfamily.blogspot.com/)


Thank you for reading and sticking with me!

Really...

I have a group of girl friends, some of which I have known since elementary school…we were all very close in high school and still see some of them every six months or so. They have all gotten married and are now on their second or third kid so we have drifted apart. My life has turned out very different than theirs. One of them emailed me last January to tell me that she was pregnant with their third baby…a total surprise to them (she thought her hubby was too old to have any more kids…he is 44ish). She knew of my struggles and wanted to tell me before I saw it on FB. It was very considerate of her and I really appreciated her thinking of my feelings. She didn’t know that the week she announced her pregnancy to me was the same week of my second miscarriage. I have stayed away from her since then which makes me feel like a horrible friend. I decided to email her yesterday since I knew her due date was coming up. She has two other kids…Luke and Lilly. I asked her if she was going with the L theme for the baby’s name and she said no…she is deciding between two other names. One of them is MY pick for a girl…I have wanted to use the name for the past year if not longer. It’s so not fair that she gets a surprise baby and uses my name. I almost started crying at work today when I read her message. I guess today is a pity party day for me. I know I can’t claim names especially since I am IF but give me a fucking break.

Happy Weekend!

I usually only post when I am in a sad place and need to vent or get it all out there, so today I am in a great mood and excited for the long weekend so I thought I would post a happy post. I just wanted to wish everyone a happy holiday whether it’s Canada Day or Fourth of July Holiday for you this week! Have a safe and wonderful weekend!

On a side note AF decided to show up today. I am happy it came today so it will not be heavy over the weekend. She was three days late this month and since I am infertile I knew I was not pregnant but it’s crazy how in the back of my mind I had a little hope for that miracle baby. You know the one…I am sure you hear the same stories I do on how your friends – mothers – sisters - cousin tried ART for years and when they finally stopped and forgot about trying to have a baby they got pregnant. I always roll my eyes at these tall tales and think it’s funny that some people actually believe that stopping trying will change my husband’s sperm. But at the same time I had a little bit of hope that would be my story this month. Maybe next month!