7dp5dt

I still have not tested…I think it’s because I am scared to death of the results. I really need this to be positive but I have a feeling it’s not. I am so in my head today and on the verge of tears because of what the test might say. This really sucks. I hate not knowing but at the same time I don’t want to know. This may break my heart.

I would like to have a symptom or two like sore boobs but I got nothing. For the life of me I can’t remember if my boobs were sore before my other two positive tests. Why didn’t I write this stuff down – wait I probably didn’t because I never thought I would miscarry and have to start all over – again and again.

Sorry for my pity party – I will hopefully be better tomorrow.