Holding Pattern

Since I am in a holding pattern for the next three months I figured getting in shape for IVF #2 is a good idea. The extra 5lbs from being IF really started to get to me. I know it’s not a lot of extra weight but it makes me very unhappy. My workout routine usually consists of a class at the gym twice a week. It’s fine to keep me active (and social) but not enough to actually get in shape or lose any weight. I took the big leap and started P90X last Monday with my hubby. We are a week in to the program and let me tell you these videos are no joke. We are going to stick to the workout plan as close as possible and I am really hoping for some results.

During this holding pattern I also decided to Zap the IF off my face. If you recall I posted here about Melasma. I have it pretty bad on my forehead and nose. I found a dermatologist that will treat this area for $100 a session (I will probably need 4 sessions). This is a great deal for the laser procedure. The only down fall is it only works in about 50% of the cases. I am hoping I fall in that category. I am sick of the spots on my face and the extra weight. I really need to start feeling pretty again soon. The past four years have not done much to help my self esteem. It’s time to fight back with lasers and P90X!

We had a wonderful weekend! Got to see some old friends on Friday night. We ended up staying out a little too late and thank goodness for cabs! I am really looking forward to the long Holiday weekend. I have Friday off so it will be extra long for me! Hmm – what to do? I guess I should start planning now!

Hotties

Does anyone else out there have an infatuation with Firemen like I do? I seriously get giddy when I see them. It just so happens that they like to shop at the grocery store by my house. The other day I was literally following them around the store with a cheesy grin on my face feeling like I was 14 years old totally crushing on them. I was actually trying to think of a way to trip or faint so they would rush to my aid. I decided against it because I am not a very good actress.

Destination - TBD

Thank you all for your comments. Some of you are such world travelers with a wealth of knowledge.

I think we want to travel and not vacation…as much as I love sitting on a beach somewhere warm I think it’s time to go on an adventure. We are leaning towards England and Italy*. I love the old architecture and all the history. I think the beer in England and the food in Italy will be amazing! I know the weather will be a bit cold but I went and bought some cute scarves from Nordstrom’s over the weekend! Now I just need to dig out my winter coats to see if I have anything warm enough! I will keep you updated on our plans. We need to make a decision soon so we can book it.

*I know some of you mentioned you have been to these spots…if so let me know if you have any hotel or show recommendations.

If you could go anywhere where would you go?

That is the question! I know that I have been set on NYC for our Anniversary trip in November but we were talking and we can go anywhere so why not plan a trip overseas. Everyone always tells us to travel BC (before children) so we are taking their advise!

The only issue is there are so many cool places around the world we can’t decide. We have talked about London, Prague, New Zealand, Costa Rica, Spain, Sweden, Scotland, and Italy…HELP! Have any of you been to any of these places? What did you love/hate about them? Keep in mind this trip will be the end of November - I am totally ok with the cold weather destinations so that won’t bother me. Since we have been married we have traveled to Hawaii, Cabo, Montana, Vegas, Rocky Point, and Chicago. I am ready for my next adventure!

Ciao!

He still believes...

I guess we are going to keep trying like normal people until we start treatments after the first of the year. While we were doing our "thing" last night and all the sudden hubby shoves a pillow under my tush. Wtf?? I guess he thinks we should try everything possible on the off chance of a miracle. So, I played along and laid there for 10 min afterwards. I couldn’t lay there any longer than that because I started thinking that if 10 IUI’s, IVF and FET didn’t work, do I really need to lay here for another 10 minutes. It’s sweet that he still believes!

On a side note…The mail boy in our office just told me that I am beautiful! He started to blush! It was a bit hard to understand with his thick Mexican accent but still really sweet!

Did you miss me?

I am back after five wonderful days off with my hubby. We didn’t do much of anything and it felt great. We went bowling, to the movies (saw the Expendables – don’t waste your money on it), hung at the pool, and got stuff done around the house.

Just trying to make my way through the hundreds of emails…wish me luck. I am ready for the weekend - Time to start planning it!

On a side note…I got a positive OPK this morning. I am hoping all the “fun” we had this weekend was not too soon. I guess I know what I am doing tonight!

Today is my Thursday!

I just need to make it through tomorrow – than I am off from work for the rest of the week to relax and spend some QT with my hubby. I am really looking forward to five days of doing nothing! It turns out that I should be ovulating this weekend so maybe that might be a little bonus. Even though I know we can’t get pregnant the old school way it will still be fun trying!

We have officially decided to wait until the first of the year to start our second IVF. I will probably call the RE in November to get on their radar. Hopefully, start BCP’s December then IVF the first part of January. I couldn’t justify paying out of pocket for it when I can try to be patient and have our insurance cover most of it. So…now I have five months to wait…this kind of sucks…I guess I will have to blog about other stuff for a while to keep me busy. Since we are waiting for the first of the year that also means that our trip to NYC is a go for November! We will start planning it this week.* I can’t wait. This trip will help keep me excited and occupied while waiting. I think I have some shopping to do! I don’t have anything to wear! (No really…I live in AZ…it doesn’t get colder than like 60 degrees during the days in the winter)

*Hubby got a nice bonus check from work this week – I guess working all those weekends paid off. Now we have enough saved to do the trip up right!

Update!

Just wanted to say that my happy hour with the girls was a blast and I am so glad that I went. I even went over to A’s house today to hold her sweet little baby. Its weird how I am totally fine with babies…it’s the bellies that I have a problem with. I will post photos of our night out when I have a chance! Happy Friday!

It gets better…

I am meeting my girls from High School for happy hour tonight. Figured it was pretty safe for me since A just had her baby a week ago. I wouldn’t have to deal with all the baby talk or even see her one week post delivery. Well – I was surly wrong. Guess who will be at the happy hour…yep – A. Guess she needs a break from the kiddos and wants to see all us girls. Glad I found out ahead of time just too mentally prepare. I know it will be fine, A has been very understanding of me and my situation and hardly even talks about her kids/pregnancy to me. She even sent me a separate email back in January telling me that she was pregnant and even apologized for it. I really hate that I am pitied and people feel they need to tip toe around and apologize for their happiness. IF is ruining me….

So, wish me luck at happy hour tonight! There will be six of us and all but two (the other is also struggling with IF) have kids. It’s a bit funny though…they all think that I have this fabulously wonderful, fun life with an amazing husband. Don’t get me wrong – I have a great life and an amazing husband but it’s put in this weird pedestal in their eyes. I guess everyone wants what they can’t have…I am sure none of them would give up their kids for a life like mine but I can tell they are a little envious.

Quick Update

For those of you who have followed me for the past month I thought I would give a quick update on my friend who had her baby. If you recall I was upset that she was considering using my favorite girls name. Well, she had her baby last week and didn’t use it! I was so happy to hear this! I know in the grand scheme of things it doesn’t matter (who knows if I will ever get pregnant or have a girl) but I hated the fact that one of my friends was so lucky and might use my name.

On a side note…I hate the name she went with…it makes me feel even better about the situation. I know that I need to grow up but this is my place to be caddy about this stuff! I can only gossip with my hubby for so long before he is done.

Monday, Monday, Monday

I hope everyone had a great weekend! We had a full weekend of family birthdays to celebrate. It was fun seeing everyone. I am back at work already planning this weekend – we are going to have some friends over to watch the UFC fight and play poker! I have a feeling this week is going to drag on and on. My DH took next week off from work for some R&R! I have to work Monday and Tuesday next week but took the rest of the week off with him. We don’t have anything planned so I am hoping to sleep in, watch movies, and plan our NYC trip!

Maybe all the relaxing will be just what I need to get knocked up – haha – thought I would try to be funny. Although my Dr told us to keep trying on our own while we are waiting to start IVF. I found it weird that he actually said that. He knows firsthand all our issues and is still giving false hope out. I guess it can’t hurt to have fun trying!