DO I HAVE TO BE A DINK?: I really hated being PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise)

Our 5+ year Journey

Sept 2006 – Threw out the BCP!

Sept 06 - Sept 07 spent trying on our own and finally realized there must be a problem

Sept 07 - 08 met with the old far away RE for testing and a lot of BS.

Sept 2008 – IUI#1 – BFN

Nov 2008 – IUI#2 – BFN

Dec 2008 – Switched RE’s

Dec 2008 – IUI/FSP #3 - BFN

Jan 2009 – IUI/FSP #4 - BFN

Feb 2009 – IUI/FSP #5 - BFN

March 2009 – IUI/FSP #6 - BFN

April 2009 – IUI/FSP #7 – BFP!!!

June 2009 – Miscarried at 9 ½ weeks - D&C

Oct 2009 – IUI/FSP #8 – BFN

Nov 2009 – IUI/FSP #9 – BFN

Dec 2009 – IUI/FSP #10 – BFP!!

Jan 2010 – Miscarried at 6 weeks

March 2010 – Started BCP for IVF #1

April 2010 - IVF #1 transferred two AAA Embies – BFN

May 2010 – FET #1 - BFN

June 2010 - WTF Appointment with Dr. Everything is normal. Taking time off and working on getting healthier

Jan 2011 - IVF #2 - BFP

May 19, 2011 - Gavin William was born at 18.5 weeks and was with us for about an hour. Our perfect baby boy is now an angle in heaven.

December 2011 - FET (transfered one frostie) and a BFP!!!! Due in August 2012

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

I really hated being PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise)

I know that we should try to enjoy our PUPO time during the craziness of treatments but it is my least favorite part. It makes me feel like a total fraud. I may be alone in this feeling but I hate walking around pretending or hoping I am pregnant and making my husband wait on me (which he does really well). All I can think about is how much it sucks that I am a total fake pretending that I am pregnant when odds say that I am not. I don’t want to pretend…I only want to act pregnant when I am pregnant. I want to eat feta cheese and lunch meats until it’s proven that I can’t. Sorry for the rant today…I just have really bad cramps and I feel like I went through IVF and FET just to have a really heavy period. I will be better tomorrow.

I set up my WTF appointment for next Thursday. At least I have something to look forward to! Any advice on what questions I should be asking at this stage in our IF?

2 comments:

Life HappensJune 2, 2010 at 6:15 AM
I know what you mean. Why do we have to give up the stuff that we enjoy for two weeks while we wait to see if the cycle even worked? And is having feta cheese or lunch meat REALLY going to affect the outcome of the pregnancy test? It seems like such a sacrifice for such a big disapointment when we get that BFN. But, we do it because there is the slightest HOPE, that life is being developed inside us.

Good luck with the follow up appt. I don't think there's much they can tell you from the first failed cycle, but the dr will talk about what he would change for the next cycle. And if you are getting testing done, he will go over that. I hope it all goes well!
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AnonymousJune 2, 2010 at 8:51 AM
I'm answering your question from my blog.

They only do two betas.... I was supposed to do a 6 week ultrasound next week but I had to move it up to 7 weeks because of my job.
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